Last minute

Hi guys. LOL. I have no idea what I'm doing typing this now... It's currently 2:56 AM on a wednesday, 30th Oct 2013. In approx 5 hours, I will be sitting in school, taking my History O Levels paper. Screw this. I wished I started revising earlier... but all that is in the past. I seriously feel so pathetic. I'm only going to study one chapter. YEAH ONE FUGGING CHAPTER. HAHAH. Omg, just thinking about it makes me want to laugh. And the worse thing is I'm not even done with that chapter now. I seriously pray that it will come out. If it doesn't, I'm screwed. My life is screwed. I'll probably sleep for like 1-2 hours. Need to get back to mugging if not I'll definitely be screwed no matter what comes out. HAHAH. Kay, no one is reading this. Yay. But good luck to anyone out there doing last minute revision too (Y) :>

Runaway

Hello! Yay, so i decided to blog out of boredom. Haven't really touched this page in ages. Don't intend to anyways.. until O's are over maybe? :) So here's a summary of what's happening...
Prelims are at the end of this month and yes I'm starting to freak out. Everyday I tell myself to work hard and all but it's so tiring at times :( Have been watching season 5 of Winx, haha. Don't judge, I still love fairies and wings and happily ever afters. Selamat Hari Raya Adilfitri to all muslims out there today! :) And happy national day in advance! Going shopping with the bestie this saturday, yay can't wait. Shopping = happiness :D Listening to the XX album, songs are not bad if you just wanna chill and relax :) Might consider buying their album :) Today's weather is perfect for a run but sadly I'm too lazy... Need to start working out.. fats are accumulating, ahahah. okayyy, bye :)

Retardation

Hahah, hellooo. It's been so long. Decided to blog today and do some stupid random things :) My first two weeks of June holiday has been wasted :'( Didn't do anything productive and went out most of the time! Just realised I have a ton of homework to do... sigh... at least it's good that I realised it now right? :D I'm the best at procrastinating. BTW, I need to excercise so badly. Have been eating so much junk food and stuffing myself that I feel like the fats are accumulating. No joke. Haven't excercised for more than two months already! Shall head to the gym or go running sometime!!! So.. I was bored... and therefore I created a video for entertainment. AHAHAHA. I'm a freak. Enjoy! P.S. the haze is terrible

If you couldn't get the video (which you probably won't), here is a summary. :D I was blabbering about the haze and I sang "We can't stop" by Miley Cyrus and a little of "Can't hold us" by Macklemore. And the rest is just me being retarted and spastic :>

Hard Times

Went out with the bffs today for lunch at Pasta Mania. Haven't had lunch like this for a very long time :') Spent more than an hour at Cotton On choosing stuff. Left with six pairs of ear studs! Wanted to shop so badly but afraid to spend too much money too...
Went down to Vivo to find mummy after dinner and visited the newly renovated Forever 21! Yay, was so happy because I was bummed by the extravagant shipping fee for Forever21.com previously. Managed to spot some stuff I saw on the site! Since I was rushing to go to Cotton On to get a notebook, I rushed to try some clothes and got two pieces in the end! Mummy offered to pay half. Thank you <3 Headed down to Uniqlo because mummy said that the pants there were on sale and I needed to get long pants badly. After spending some time there, finally left with a pair of black pants, a 3/4 denim one and daisy-like skorts! A perfect addition to my closet. Got my notebook and went home!
Tomorrow's going to be a tiring day since I planned for myself to study the entire day. Chinese o'levels is approaching in one month's time. I cannot afford to waste anymore time.

"Most times, the people who encourage and comfort you the most are those who truly need encouragement."

I always wonder why I've always been a failure. Screwing relationships and my life up. I have no dreams, no goal, no nothing. What do I do then, with my life? I push away those who love me and care for me. Why? My head throbs and my eyes shed tears every once in awhile. I feel so alone, so distant from everyone. There's nothing I can do now to change reality. Reality sucks. I just want to immerse myself into a book and ignore the world. Right now, the only thing that keeps me going are my besties. They might not know what's going on but I'm happy as long as they are. Hang in there, I'm sure things will get better... If only, we could talk like we did before...