Hard Times

Went out with the bffs today for lunch at Pasta Mania. Haven't had lunch like this for a very long time :') Spent more than an hour at Cotton On choosing stuff. Left with six pairs of ear studs! Wanted to shop so badly but afraid to spend too much money too...
Went down to Vivo to find mummy after dinner and visited the newly renovated Forever 21! Yay, was so happy because I was bummed by the extravagant shipping fee for Forever21.com previously. Managed to spot some stuff I saw on the site! Since I was rushing to go to Cotton On to get a notebook, I rushed to try some clothes and got two pieces in the end! Mummy offered to pay half. Thank you <3 Headed down to Uniqlo because mummy said that the pants there were on sale and I needed to get long pants badly. After spending some time there, finally left with a pair of black pants, a 3/4 denim one and daisy-like skorts! A perfect addition to my closet. Got my notebook and went home!
Tomorrow's going to be a tiring day since I planned for myself to study the entire day. Chinese o'levels is approaching in one month's time. I cannot afford to waste anymore time.

"Most times, the people who encourage and comfort you the most are those who truly need encouragement."

I always wonder why I've always been a failure. Screwing relationships and my life up. I have no dreams, no goal, no nothing. What do I do then, with my life? I push away those who love me and care for me. Why? My head throbs and my eyes shed tears every once in awhile. I feel so alone, so distant from everyone. There's nothing I can do now to change reality. Reality sucks. I just want to immerse myself into a book and ignore the world. Right now, the only thing that keeps me going are my besties. They might not know what's going on but I'm happy as long as they are. Hang in there, I'm sure things will get better... If only, we could talk like we did before...